watching the window

no kidding... it's been raining every day for like a week straight. i feel like this is the most rain i've seen in all my life! i do love it, tho. it's nice and relaxing~

also, i've discovered that lucy is scared of the word "rain". whenever i try to make her come in the house and she won't listen, i just tell her that it will rain and she comes right in. works like a charm!

anyways, moving on.. i haven't up to a whole lot lately. i recently applied for an associate position at this secondhand bookstore in my city. i actually mentioned the store to eugene a couple weeks ago! so.. idk if i'm even gonna get it, but i guess i'll have to put in more applications to other places so i can make some money (aaah... T_T).

i had a therapy session today, and it went really well! basically, we went over my results for this personality assessment i had to take about two weeks ago, and we talked about some of the traits and behaviors of people with the different personality types. 

basically, the assessment would give me a list of words, and i had to pick out the word that best represented me. at the end of the assessment, i would get a result with four animals (lion, camel, parrot, and turtle) and it would give me a number along with each animal. the top two would determine my main personality, and my top two was the turtle (10) and camel (7). all in all, the assessment was very insightful, and a lot of the information was very accurate to me.

if you wanna take the assessment for yourself, here is the link! lmk your results~

i've also made a fewww changes to my blog, hehe :3 the pink gradients are kinda getting on my nerves, so i'm thinking about toning them down. i'd also like to add more colors like green, yellow, and maybe orange! i've been feeling very.. colorful lately.

i usually have a bit of a struggle writing my blog posts, but listening to michael jackson made this process so much easier. he is forever magical! i'm sorry, couldn't resist mentioning him again. that's literally my man idc.. </3

✿ one good thing that WILL happen this week is that my dear friend antama has a birthday this upcoming saturday!! please show her lots of love and kindness~ ✿

well, i think that will be all from me for now! this post felt kinda short, so hopefully i can post something more eventful soon. but until then, please be happy and stay safe. talk soon~!

- nara ❤︎⁠

angel clubhouse

hello guyssss, how are you doing? :D i hope everyone had a good weekend~

so yes, i am still going crazy for michael jackson. the photo for this post was one i put together (ik the editing is a bit messy, please excuse..) because i came across that photo of hara and it immediately reminded me of michael and his adorable pink mickey mouse sweatshirt.

michael was a huge fan of mickey mouse, and he wore that sweatshirt in one of the rehearsals for thriller. there are plenty of videos online showing him running around and playing like a little kid during practice, and he's just so cute!! i love watching videos of him when he was happy and having fun.

i can't believe we lost both of those angels, though. why is it always the good people?? rest in peace michael and hara, we will always love you. ♡

one true idol

TIFFANY RETURNS!! :0 (it's been like eight blogs since i last used her picture.. omgosh)

hellooo, good evening friends~ how was your day?

personally, my day was alright! i worked on my site for a long time, and i'm prepared to seriously lock in this time. i can't let myself abandon it again until i've made something to be proud of. and even tho i still have no clue what i'm gonna call the site, i'm sure i'll have a better idea later on. we shall see.

it also rained all day long, it was amaaaaazing~ i left my window open earlier today and listening to the rain while i wrote code. aaah, i hope the rain continues just a little longer.

today was also a lot better because i managed to avoid doomscrolling on tiktok!! i realize now that a break from that app would do me lots of good, especially because it's been making me very sad lately. you see, my family and i went to see the michael jackson movie last weekend for my mom's birthday, and ever since i've been missing him like crazy. no joke, i literally cried last night because i missed him so much.

i've always been an mj fan, but especially when i was a kid. in fact, some of my earliest childhood memories are listening to his music in the car with my sister. and after watching that movie, i believe my mj phase is creeping back in.

lately, i've been so torn up over him because i've come to learn that he never got to have a childhood due to his abusive father pushing him into the spotlight so early. on top of that, he had a really hard time making friends because of his fame, so he was extremely lonely. that's why he had so many animals, because he felt like they were his only friends... ㅜㅜ

and when he grew up, he still felt like a kid inside, so he often spent time with children. he literally saw himself as peter pan. but ofc, the media twisted it and made it seem like he was a predator, when that couldn't have been farther from the truth. michael was so misunderstood, and he deserved none of the mistreatment. he just wanted to heal the world. (omgsjsjdd i'm gonna start crying again)

i'm really hurt i never really got to know him until after he was gone. i was only a few days away from my third birthday when he passed, and when i think about that i get so upset i wasn't born sooner. oh, what i would give to see him perform live, just once. 

in loving memory of michael jackson, i want to make a playlist dedicated to him. i hope he knows just how much he was and continues to be loved by fans, and that he's living out the childhood he never got to have.

did you guys listen to mj? if so, what's your favorite song and/or album?

✿ alright, one good thing that happened this week was that i got to eat cake! it was vanilla cake withhh.. whipped cream frosting, i think? anways, it was delicious and i miss that cake already. ✿

- nara ❤︎⁠