one true idol

TIFFANY RETURNS!! :0 (it's been like eight blogs since i last used her picture.. omgosh)

hellooo, good evening friends~ how was your day?

personally, my day was alright! i worked on my site for a long time, and i'm prepared to seriously lock in this time. i can't let myself abandon it again until i've made something to be proud of. and even tho i still have no clue what i'm gonna call the site, i'm sure i'll have a better idea later on. we shall see.

it also rained all day long, it was amaaaaazing~ i left my window open earlier today and listening to the rain while i wrote code. aaah, i hope the rain continues just a little longer.

today was also a lot better because i managed to avoid doomscrolling on tiktok!! i realize now that a break from that app would do me lots of good, especially because it's been making me very sad lately. you see, my family and i went to see the michael jackson movie last weekend for my mom's birthday, and ever since i've been missing him like crazy. no joke, i literally cried last night because i missed him so much.

i've always been an mj fan, but especially when i was a kid. in fact, some of my earliest childhood memories are listening to his music in the car with my sister. and after watching that movie, i believe my mj phase is creeping back in.

lately, i've been so torn up over him because i've come to learn that he never got to have a childhood due to his abusive father pushing him into the spotlight so early. on top of that, he had a really hard time making friends because of his fame, so he was extremely lonely. that's why he had so many animals, because he felt like they were his only friends... ㅜㅜ

and when he grew up, he still felt like a kid inside, so he often spent time with children. he literally saw himself as peter pan. but ofc, the media twisted it and made it seem like he was a predator, when that couldn't have been farther from the truth. michael was so misunderstood, and he deserved none of the mistreatment. he just wanted to heal the world. (omgsjsjdd i'm gonna start crying again)

i'm really hurt i never really got to know him until after he was gone. i was only a few days away from my third birthday when he passed, and when i think about that i get so upset i wasn't born sooner. oh, what i would give to see him perform live, just once. 

in loving memory of michael jackson, i want to make a playlist dedicated to him. i hope he knows just how much he was and continues to be loved by fans, and that he's living out the childhood he never got to have.

did you guys listen to mj? if so, what's your favorite song and/or album?

✿ alright, one good thing that happened this week was that i got to eat cake! it was vanilla cake withhh.. whipped cream frosting, i think? anways, it was delicious and i miss that cake already. ✿

- nara ❤︎⁠

kowadan (2013) review

hi hi !! tonight i'll be doing my first movie review.

so, a few weeks ago i came across a few clips from a horror movie called Kowadan: Horror High School, and when i pulled up the full movie i found out that it's actually an anthology of horror stories.

honestly, none of the stories were that scary and i actually got bored and turned it off near the end. however, what originally convinced me to watch it was the story of yuna and crazy stalker girl, haru.

i'll summarize and show screenshots i took hehe~

so, yuna is a normal girl who lives with her mom and her adorable dog, seru. she meets a girl named haru on a message board and they decide to meet bc they both wanna be makeup artists. after talking in a cafe for a bit, they go to a park and haru does yuna's makeup for her. they become good friends and start hanging out, and haru gifts yuna with a makeup box, which yuna is hesitant to accept. just then, yuna is contacted by an old friend named maruko. this apparently makes haru mad and she knocks a cup of juice onto yuna.

haru tells yuna to go clean herself in the bathroom, and while yuna is gone she DELETES every contact except her own from yuna's phone. (also guys, isn't yuna's bear charm so cute??)

later on, maruko calls yuna and asks about some strange messages she received from her, but yuna hadn't sent them. (spoiler: it was haru trying to break yuna and maruko up). yuna also confronts haru about the missing contacts but haru says she did not do it. i think haru then asks to hang out, but yuna says she has "something important" and takes seru on a walk instead.

as yuna and seru are out on the walk, haru approaches them and she is NOT happy. i just took screenshots of the scene bc it was kinda funny to me, lol. (i'm sorry the photos are such bad quality...)

anyways, the following scene made me so mad. all i'm gonna say is that when yuna woke up the next morning, seru was no longer there. only the collar remained.

i assume yuna told her mother and her mother was so angry and wanted to call the cops. right then, haru called the house phone and yuna's mom was like "DO NOT CALL MY DAUGHTER!" then stormed out of the room. then haru called AGAIN and this time yuna picked up and was basically yelling "we're not friends anymore, don't contact me!"

HOWEVERRR!! haru said she wanted that makeup box back. so yuna went to the park to drop it off, but found a photograph of her MOTHER with a bloody red X on it. so she rushed home and found her mom.. and it was quite a graphic scene so i won't describe.

then haru enters the room and the story ends.

guys, i really need to stop watching all of these crazy movies. i need wholesome media in my life, but the crazy things always seem to initially catch my attention. "( – ⌓ – )

when alone

so… i’m the top naoko gushima listener on youtube apparently.

i’m only seeing this badge 2 days later, and honestly i didn’t even know youtube had badges, but YIPPEEE~!

while on the topic of music, have u guys ever heard of the girl group c-real? i listened to a few of their songs yesterday from the Round 1 EP. “No No No No No” has definitely been played more than once, lol. it seems they were only active from 2011-2012, tho :[

moving on now from music to… movies?? yes, i actually sat down and watched a movie by myself last night. and it was.. uh. it was definitely a movie. it was a japanese horror movie from 2012 called Shady.

i won’t go into too much detail bc it was kinda disturbing, but basically, two bullied and lonely high school girls become best friends but one is lowkey insane. oh, and the teacher is a creep.

moral of the story: be wary of who you allow to be ur friend.

well, i hope u guys have a great rest of ur day. i hope my movie summary didn’t ruin anything for u, lol. there’s another movie i’m interested in watching, so maybe i’ll do a review on that one if it isn’t too bad.

i love u guys, talk soon~!!

- nara ❤︎