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haiii cutie pies~!

it's quite late, but that short nap i took earlier is probably what's keeping me awake now. still, i'll try to sleep after i post this... maybe. anywaaaays, how are you guys doing? :D

personally, i've been doing okay. i didn't have any classes yesterday, so i didn't have to do my group presentation, hehe :3 but now i'll be thinking about it over spring break.. eeeek.

besides thinking about school, i'm planning to deep clean my room next week! i need to do my laundry, clean out my armoire and closet, vacuum, and get someone to fix my curtains. i also wanna rearrange all my stuffed animals so they aren't just piled up on my chair. a few years ago, i used to place them all around me and i would sleep in the center. it was so cozy, and i wonder if i could do that again.

also guys, i drove myself to my own dentist appointment this week~ however, it was not fun. (is the dentist ever fun, tho??) i really dislike getting x-rays, it's so uncomfy :( and um. i have a few small cavities but i will go and get them fixed this week. i have two appointments on wednesday and thursday, so hopefully everything goes well.

i also started working on a layout for april. i spent a majority of the time struggling with border image sizing, but i'm excited to see what i may do with the layout. i wanna create a very minimalistic layout, saving only the important stuff. there isn't a whole lot that i can say about it right now, but we will see what happens!

and lastly, you guys know i gotta talk about music. currently, i'm at a very 2nd generation k-pop girl group time in my life. nine muses, miss a, and kara are taking over my ears. heavy on nine muses. i JUST recently managed to stop walking around my house mumbling the lyrics to no playboy. what will my next song obsession be?? stay tuned :0

well! i think that's enough rambling for tonight. i'll be on my merry way now, but i hope u guys are doing amazing. nighty night, i love uuuu~

- nara ❤︎

reminisce

hi! so um. i don't know if this is a good idea to post here, but i have just had a lot on my mind today and i wanted to write out my thoughts.

so, i've recently spent some time on discord after receiving a frq on friday. it was some guy from spacehey that i ended up having to block bc he turned out to be a weirdo, but... anyways.

today i made the decision to just update my profile and look through old messages, right? it was just for fun, really. most of the texts i read were between me and people i was friends with on spacehey that kinda disappeared after a while, lol. (i miss them fr, they were very cool.. </3)

then i made the strange decision to read back messages from my past relationship. i guess i was just curious to see how i would react to them. i didn't cry my eyes out or anything, but i wasn't expecting to. instead, i chuckled at some messages, and simply thought back on those times. 

but now, i feel like a loser. aren't i supposed to be completely detached from that relationship? i don't know, but i guess i felt that we had been broken up long enough that reading through past texts wouldn't bother me so much. aaah, i was very wrong.. 𖦹 ´ ᯅ ` 𖦹

i know it was my decision to separate, but sometimes i miss that bond. and with those feelings comes embarrassment. i feel like it's selfish for me to even want it back. i knew then that completely cutting contact was the only way to move on. we could not be friends, and that was okay. it hurt, but it had to be done.

i just wish my heart didn't feel so heavy now.

but oh well. i'm sorry for writing a post like this directly after my last one. i'll try to write something more lighthearted very soon, pinky promise! i honestly considered just writing this in my diary, but i guess i just wanted someone to talk to.

the truth is, the internet is the only space i feel comfortable being myself in besides my house, lol. you guys are the kindest and most supportive online friends i have ever had, and i appreciate you so much. despite the chaos and struggles of life, you always make the effort to jump online and interact with me. i'm so lucky to have you guys in my life, and i hope to stay in touch with you for a long time. i love you guysssaaahhhh <333

- nara ❤︎

taste

hi guys!! i was gonna post a blog talking about my week, but then i read it and thought it might be kinda boring, so i'm doing something a little different today. here's a list of foods and snacks i really want to try and/or eat! let's get started :D